Yesterday I shared my feelings of being overwhelmed since my father’s “turn for the worse” recently. Rack-up more phone calls and travel to my growing to-do list. Although sometimes I pause before I hit the PUBLISH button after I write such a personal entry, I almost always go ahead and post it. It isn’t fair to my readers to pretend I never have a bad day; that things never gets to me. But an email from a reader last night alerted me to a possible misconception that I’d like to clear-up.
The reader asked me several questions about supplements and side effects last week. I had gladly been answering them systematically, one or two every day or so. But after reading yesterday’s post about how I was feeling overwhelmed and anxious, she apologized for bothering me with such “trivial questions.”
NO! That wasn’t my point at all! The last thing I want is for my friends in the myeloma community to feel that they are imposing by asking a question or sharing feelings about one of their down days. I live for that! I need to simplify my life in other ways. It’s the seemingly endless medical appointments and treatment time I would like to axe first. Waving my hand and making the junk email go away wouldn’t hurt either; I sort through hundreds of emails daily.
But as I shared with another reader, Its my fault that I can’t seem to turn-off so many of my Google Alerts, the twitter accounts and Facebook.
Here’s an example of what stresses me out. Wednesday I shared how excited I was that the updated edition of my third book, New Multiple Myeloma Therapies from a Patient’s Perspective, was in-stock and ready to ship. I passed-along a code, MYELOMA, to use in My Cancer Store so anyone that wanted to order could save $2.
And what happened? The code wasn’t working. And I didn’t know how to fix it! Hassle, stress and worry. I know its a small thing, but I like and expect this stuff to work. And since I’m a staff of one and three quarters–me, Pattie part time and my “now he’s busy because he has a full time job,” tech volunteer, Robb–it can be time consuming to try and figure these things out. And have you ever noticed that the small stuff can eat-up the most time?
Fortunately, Robb was kind enough to stop-in yesterday afternoon to help with the code (It’s working!) and to announce he’s going to try and make more time to help us out.
I was just having a bad end of the week. But I still plan to seek-out some in-person, professional therapy from someone that works with cancer patients regularly. That I’m serious about. One more appointment to help me feel anxious and uptight on therapy days!
Stressed so that I can decompress? Not to worry. I have all of your kind comments and suggestions to help me pull it all together. And I want to thank you for that! Without your encouragement, I would really be a wreck!
There have been a few interesting myeloma related developments I will share with your tomorrow. Until then, feel good and keep smiling! Pat